Met up with Elaine after work yesterday. It was planned since Saturday. Only after agreeing to meet up with her that I realise that the dinner organised by the Sales Department also falls on Thursday.But of course, meeting up with Elaine is more important than them. =) Still trying to recall we last met. Elaine, any idea yet? ***shakes head***We met at Suntec City, walked to Bugis, had dinner there then head to Plaza Singapura. By the time we reach Plaza Singapura, my legs were aching already. I am old already... No stamina to walk long distances... But how come I can always walk from City Hall to Tanjong Pagar MRT station without any problem? ***shakes head again***Melvin has been asking me to go for some talk. Have been rejecting him and am actually fearful of his calls already. But, I do not want to ruin our friendship just because of this matter. It is so not worth it. But how can I tell him that I am no interested at all in the talk. Still finding a way to do so... ***scratch head***Upon reaching home, I thought I could go to bed immediately. However, I could not get to sleep at all!!! I was in the semi-conscious mode through the night. Half asleep and half awake... It seems like whenever HE is on leave, I have trouble sleeping... Why???Was not in a very good mood at work today. Guess because of my lack of sleep...Headed to Bishan after work to meet Benjamin. A total wrong move!!!He messaged me he would be late. Said he will call when he reached. I then walk around while waiting for him. As Junction 8 was too crowded, I decided to just wait at the MRT station. Messaged him a while later to ask if he is reaching then. No reply...Decided to call him. He was actually at Level 4 already!!! Went there to look for him. And he nagged all the way. In the end, he realised that he was suppose to call me when he reach but he did not. And there was no apology at all for making me wait for nothing and wrongly accused me!!! PISSED!!! He is a 101% MCP!!!Told him not to watch any movie. Was not in the mood at all... Went to Ya Kun Kaya Toast shop to have a drink and chat.Throughout the chat, he debated any sentence I said. There was NOTHING at all he agreed with me. Or rather, I was NOT GIVEN ANY CHANCE to speak more than 5 sentences. ***Slaps forehead***I HATE SINGAPOREAN GUYS!!!Yes... I think I am biased... But, I still think Malaysian guys are much better than them... ***Runs and hide***Yes... I miss him... I still miss him... I will always miss him... Does he knows that my mind and heart is still with him... Will he ever realise that how miserable life is without him... Will there ever be a day where he will return to me and be mine and only mine... So many questions in my mind... But have no answer to them at all. Should I tell him about it?Wonder what is in his mind also...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
12:17 PM
Yes. I did go out in the end.Called HIM when I reached the bus stop at my house downstairs. Could hear how tired he was through his voice. Said it is alright if he want to continue sleeping. But fearing that I will be angry (which I was actually), he said he will meet me still. ***Hugs*** Thank you darling... I know, I am a very hard nut to crack.I actually did write him a letter, which I threw away before I left home. Decided not to give it to him. A very stupid letter after some thoughts...Went to watch yet another Tamil movie, Mayaavi. When I approached the counter for Tamil movies, the counter-girl actually directed me to the other counter, selling English movie tickets. When I asked for 2 Mayaavi tickets, she immediately put down the phone which she was holding, with a big wide smile, passed me the tickets.He only explain to me the ending of the show. It is the same ending as us. If you know what I mean... Honestly, I have not let go yet. I am still holding on to that thin, fine line of hope. After the show, we went for dinner at Swensen's. I had the Black Pepper Seafood Pasta and him the Lamb Chop. We shared some Calamari Rings as well. A very enjoyable dinner. =) Wanted to have an ice-cream but was too full already after the main course. So we skipped it.Dropped by at Giordano. An unplanned move. I ended up with yet another of their v-neck top. This time round, it is dark pink in color. Him? He got a pair of pants. =)We then headed to take the MRT. Met Parvin in the MRT. I had no choice but to alight at Yio Chu Kang MRT station. Could not accompany him to work today.Suddenly I feel that although we were out the whole entire evening, I did not speak much to him at all. Or rather, I did not talk to him at all. Do not know why this feeling in me surfaced...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
2:51 PM
Was lazing around at home the whole of yesterday... Got messages from 2 people in particular... Benjamin and Vincent...Who the hell is Vincent you may wonder... Well, he is one of the sales person I spoke to while buying the handphone for HIM. If only the person who message me was Gavin instead. Anyway, is this correct? Keeping their customer's handphone and message them as and when they like... Do I have the right to sue him???Rubbish... No time to entertain him anyway... =)HE called me on his way home from Johor Bahru. Said he received a summon for 19 February. That is it. It must be time we went to Kuala Lumpur. Asked me to accompany him to Johor Bahru today to settle the summon. I very much want to. Have the urge to take MC already. But told him I got to work while considering should I really go and take MC. Because I know he never like people taking MC for NOTHING!!!In the end, I decided to go with him. Since when I never do something which he asked, right? But he said he asked Eric to drive him over already. PISSED!!!He said he know I could not make it. So he just say it casually. YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW THAT AND YOU STILL ASK ME!!! Damn... Said he will meet me in Johor Bahru after he has settled the summon... Then later, said he will meet me in the evening to watch a movie instead...Asked him to call me before leaving hotel. He did. I was even more upset then because of his fickle mindedness...I haven taken MC already. Whether or not I will be out later, will all depends...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
3:50 AM
HE called me just when I was about to go for lunch. Said he will meet me at City Link for lunch. As usual, ate at Thai Express. While walking there, I suddenly remembered it is Saturday. For him, Saturday = Vegetarian day.At first he ordered a dessert only. But they do not it already. Then, he suddenly thought of asking the waiteress if they can cook noodles with vegetables only. Special order for him. So glad they are able to do it. =) As for me, had Phad Thai AGAIN. Yes, I had it as well on Thursday.The previous time when he met me for lunch, we bumped into Joey. Today, we bumped into her again...He called me shortly after I reached hotel. Said he had something to tell me but he forgot. His handphone bill. At that time, I thought to myself again, "I just went to take a look at his bill online. And there he is telling me the amount." 2 coincidences in a row, one in each day? I still choose to believe it is telepathy.Plans to go out with Benjamin after work was cancelled. He had something on. I was somewhat pleased as well. Was very sleepy then. Just felt like heading home for a nap.Went to dinner at Hougang Point with Mummy after I woke up.Plans to go Zouk with Elaine is also cancelled. Junda is going to watch soccer with his friends instead...Just when I was thinking about HIM, he called. =) Surprise as it is his off day today. Thought he will be sleeping through-out the day. We did thought of staying out tonight. But we are not going anymore... At this time, I guess everyone must be saying what a fool I am. But if whatever we are doing now makes us happy, why not?
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:25 PM